Currently: Apologetic

Loving/Hating; I am loving that I'm in California in 70 degree weather while the rest of the country freezes to death. Loving that it is nearing the Super Bowl and the two teams I follow are in the playoffs. I hate that my Colts lost to the New England Patriots and am hoping the Bronco's and Peyton stomp the Chargers and then go on to the Super Bowl.

But what I really hate is that I haven't blogged since July. So much has happened. Let's see... first my mom had a heart attack then I got sick and almost died in September and most recently my grams had a heart attack, had to have a triple bypass surgery and is currently recovering from her Christmas and New Years in the hospital. I've just been a mess really. I hate that I haven't been inspired to blog and I'm still unemployed so no money to purchase new make up or hold giveaways or anything. It's rather disheartening.

Reading;  I've been re-reading the Mortal Instruments series and of course my own work of fiction that I've set a goal of having the first draft edited by the end of Jan.

Watching; My usual series. I'm very excited for The Fosters, The Originals, Reign and a few other CW shows to start back up. OH AND OF COURSE - GIRLS.

Anticipating;  Not much these days. I just want to be finished with school so I can get a job and move past whatever it is that is holding me back.

Listening to; My favorite stuff right now is by a band called The Darling Buds. Teasers: X | X

Planning; Trips to Europe to take my mind off what it is I think I am missing from my life. It's hard to plan a trip with no money. :(

Working on; Editing my book and reviving my blog.

Wishing; I wish that I could find a way to make more time for myself to blog and also to get a part time job. I also want to be in England. I could kickstarter that right? Sponsor me?

What are you up to?

Currently: Busy!

Loving/Hating;  Loving school but hating that it has basically left me no time to blog. :( I only go to school from 8:30-2:30 but afterwords I go to my Grams and help out there or I come home and do homework and sometimes I do homework after being at my Grams (like on swim days which are Monday's, Wednesdays and Saturdays). It doesn't leave me much time for blogging. I mean I had to take my first test 3 days after starting class on subject matter everyone else had 3 weeks to learn (I got 81% and beat out half the class) and then today I took another test and tied with three other people for highest grade with a 97% (I missed one freaking question and they wouldn't tell me which one - RUDE). So it's not like I've been laying around or anything. Well, yesterday I did because I got food poisoning and I left school early because I got sick again but I took my test damn it!

Reading;  I'm not really reading anything besides my cosmetology textbook but believe me it is an interesting read. I've basically learned that everything I've been doing cosmetically since I was a toddler is wrong. Seriously, I've held scissors a.k.a shears wrong my whole life. The way I blow dry my hair? WRONG! The way I apply my make up, clean my face, wax or tweeze my eyebrows? WRONG! WRONG! WROOOOONNNNGGG! So to say it has been educational is an understatement but I love it.

Watching; I just finished The Carrie Diaries (Can't wait until October when everything comes back!) and I just started Revolution.

Anticipating;  4th of July. There's a big pot luck at school the day before, then I'm possibly meeting up with Ashley and Katie and taking them to my fam's place in Redondo Beach. I'll be taking lots of pictures I am sure. Thank Goodness I have it off from school!

Listening to; I am really into Paramore's new album as well as a lot of stuff from the radio. Pharrell has been busy lately and everything he is on golden. I LOVED Get Lucky with Daft Punk and his colab with T.I and Robin Thicke in Blurred Lines? Genius. The song is so dirty but so catchy I can't help but love it.

Planning; I'm thinking of no longer doing WWL or Make Up Mondays and instead just doing fashion and make up posts whenever I can. Sticking to such a strict schedule does not seem to be working for me after a year of doing it. I guess it is just not practical..

Working on; Today was test day at school so we start a new chapter on Tuesday (Saturdays are purely clinic days and we have Sun/Mon off) so I could get started on my workbooks and flash cards but I won't. LOL.

Wishing; I wish that I could find a way to make more time for myself to blog and also to get a part time job. I really need to start applying to places again. There is a lot of hidden costs in attending Cosmetology school and I hate being without money. Sponsor me?

What are you up to?

Currently: Ugly Crying Like Kim Kardashian

I'm going to warn you that I am writing this at the height of my emotional breakdown and that it will be full of hateful self-deprecating remarks. If you can't hang, it's best to leave now and come back on Monday when I will have some news that won't make you want to bitch slap me across the face.

THIS IS ALSO GETS GRAPHIC (NC-17 / NSFW), SO KIDS LOOK AWAY.

Currently: Fuming

Hating;  I don't know if you've noticed that I changed this from Loving to Hating but I did. I'm not in a good mood. I received an e-mail with "unsolicited" advice from a complete stranger who went down a checklist of sorts telling me everything I am doing wrong. Excuse me but who the fuck are you and what gives you any sort of right to point out anyone's flaws and judge them? You aren't my friend so your unsolicited advice isn't welcome, it's rude and offensive so here's my unsolicited advice to everyone - unless someone asks for your critic do yourself a favor and don't give your opinion. It will save you and your intended some grief. I've had to chalk it up to "there's always one person who isn't trying to be your friend and give you some advice, they are trying to tear you down. Take a deep breath and move on." Or in my case write a blog about it, promptly telling them to go fuck themselves and call it a day. In case you are wondering I didn't respond to the e-mail but I should have. I'm just ignoring them.

Reading;  I'm doing a lot of reading and researching on doing Craft Shows and selling soap. I have quite a bit to learn in that aspect but I've read 5 books in the last two weeks. More than I read all year last year. (BTW I still haven't gotten any farther into An Abundance of Katherine's by John Green even though it's by my bed and I made it a goal at the beginning of Dec to finish it by the end of the year. Oops!)

Watching; I'm getting ready to catch myself up on Monday and Tuesday nights TV shows before Criminal Minds comes on. w00t.

Anticipating;  Next Tuesday my mom and my grandma are going to Paula, CA on a girls bonding excursion and we're going to gamble. My grams has lots of luck in Casino's and every time I've ever won at a Casino it was with my Grams money. She have me $20 for my 21st birthday and for my birthday my mom took me to Vegas, which was something we had planned since the first time I went there when I was 18. I won $300. Then just before I left California Tracy, my mom, my grams and my gramps went to Vegas for my Gram & Gramps anniversary. My gramps quit when he lost $100, my grams did well, my mom lost the whole $200 she took and I didn't have money to gamble so my gram's gave me $20 and I won $100 on the first spin and $75 on my second. My gramps went bananas and was like "let's go play poker." I quit while I was ahead because even though I won $300 on my birthday I blew it on the machine literally right before the cashier (to my defense when I was looking for a machine I wanted that one but it was out of order. I thought because it was up and running again it was fate. Eh, maybe it was. Whatever).

Listening to; I am not really big on anything right now. Not a whole lot of new albums at the moment and I'm still listening to stuff from my road trip mixes.

Planning; I'm planning on re-designing my soap website. I think I'm going to bite the bullet and hire a legit designer to do my website and I am trying to decide on whether I want to stay with Big Cartel or if I want to move to Store Envy.

Working on; Perfecting my Soap recipe and as always my business plan. I've actually started writing it and it's coming along nicely. Before all this though I really REALLY need to look for a job. I am absolutely just not trying a hard as I need to. I keep making mental excuses but in reality I've just been lazy. That ends now. Literally. My resume has been fine tuned and while I'm watching TV tonight I'm going to send out resumes and hopefully schedule a few interviews for Friday or Monday.

Wishing; I wish I had a job already. I haven't been trying lately so I need to get on that as I've said.

What are you up to?

Currently: In Love With...

Loving;  I don't have much, just three blogs I'm loving. Click to be surprised and find out if it's you! 1 / 2 / 3

Reading;  I'm doing a lot of reading and researching on my soap. I'm really into all of this stuff so I'm trying to read about business and all the necessary steps into properly forming a business. So much goes into it, it's exhausting. I've never made a business plan before and some of the parts of how you come up with the numbers are so hard. Where am I supposed to find statistics on how many women shop online in a year? You'd think the government would have the stats on that but they don't.

Watching; I'm currently on Youtube watching videos about how to frost cupcakes. Sounds silly right? Well, there are these things called bath bombs or bath fizzies and I really want to make a cupcake one for Ivory. I think she'd go absolutely nuts-o over one so I'm figuring out how to ice cupcakes so that I can make a really cute one for her for Christmas.

Anticipating;  This weekend. Tomorrow is my friend Katelyn's birthday. We're going to the Salvador Dali museum tomorrow and then her party is at night. I am going to go to the museum, come home and pack and then go to her party for a bit then come back and pack... LOTS OF PACKING.

Listening to; I am on spotify, trying to make a list of everything I need to buy with my iTunes giftcard I got from a co-worker and prep for my 4 day road trip. Just me and some tunes and the open road. Yee-haw!

Planning; Moving & packing! I got some free boxes I ordered today and they are huge. Those suckers aren't going to fit in my car so I think I'm going to let Brit use them. LOL. Then I'm planning my Christmas stuffs with the fambam. I have all my girls basically coming to visit and then my family. The 28th we are all going to Disneyland so I'm super excited about that.

Working on; Soap, business plan, blogging and what I am going to do in California before the job hunt kicks up a notch.

Wishing; I wish I had money to pay for a mover and enough money to really jump-start my business. Baby steps though, baby steps.

What are you up to?

Currently: Being Awesome

Loving;  I don't have much, just three blogs I'm loving. Click to be surprised and find out if it's you! 1 / 2 / 3

Reading;  I'm actually reading a book you guys. Legit reading. It's one I started on the plane back in August. I didn't really like it but then I decided to give it another try. I've only gotten like 3 pages farther in but I am determined to finish it. I should probably tell you about the book though right? It's called An Abundance of Katherine's by John Green. So far though, all I've got about this book is that this idiot (the book calls him a prodigy) will only date girls named Kathrine. He gets his heart broken again and goes on a road trip with his best friend and ends up in nowhere TN and then yeah that's as far as I've gotten. It doesn't look too promising but I gotta trudge through it. My goal is to finish it by the end of the year. LOL.

Watching; The news, because I'm at work. I'm actually trying to block it out.

Anticipating;  This weekend. I'm going to try and hit the movies to see Breaking Dawn. I'm wondering how many people realize that they changed the ending of the book for the movie? Brittany didn't quite realize it at first. I am glad for once. Breaking Dawn is probably the worst way to end a series - OF ALL TIME YA'LL. I mean the Twilight books, by perspective, are probably the stupidest books of all time but they resonate with some people. I identified with Bella in the third book and probably that whole messy emotional break down bit resonates with a lot of people but I was more into the love triangle I-know-I'm-hurting-you-and-selfish-but-I-can't-stop-being-an-asshole thing. You know, real stuffs. But I'm going, even if I have to go it a lone. It would be ironic. I went and saw the first movie by myself so maybe I should go to the last one solo as well?

Listening to; I have a playlist that I'm listening to. Yeeeaaaah so I CREEP, just keep it on the downlown because nobodies supposed to know. CREEP.

Planning; Moving. Oi. This weekend my only break from packing up my books and clothes I don't wear is going to be going to the movies.

Working on; Trying to get some more bloggin' ideas. Not even going to lie to you guys, this whole NaBloPoMo is only half way done and I'm ready to call it quits. It's too much for me right now with everything going on to be doing so much promotion as well as posting. I'm also working on giving myself a pep-talk so I don't call it quits. Not going to well. Thoughts?

Wishing; I was in California already. Wishing I had lots of money to spend on Christmas because my cousins are coming out. Wishing I had a job and an apartment in California and that I wasn't such a brat and moved to Florida like an idiot because I would have had all of that by now. Time to go make it a reality and get some money made.

Currently: Bored Out Of My Gourd

Loving;  That tomorrow is Friday and after Friday it's the weekend and the weekend means Saturday. Saturday means two things: I can sleep in (which I probably won't) and HALLOWEEN HORROR NIGHTS. I love scary stuff so much and HHN's has The Walking Dead... ZOMG I am just... yes please. YES. Obviously I'm bored enough to photoshop myself into pictures of zombies and promo photo's for HHN then I'm really bored.

Reading;  I'm just reading the blogs and finding them terribly boring lately. I'm bored with blogging and with many things. I'm hoping HHN revives me a bit somehow. I'm just not feeling the book or blog love these days. By that I mean I'm not feeling the love toward other blogs, ya'll are loving my blog just fine. And that's the way I like it. ;)

Watching; I'm about to start a freaking pirating marathon so I can watch something to escape my boredom while at work! It's ridiculous.

Anticipating;  This weekend... obviously Halloween Horror Nights. I love scary stuffs.

Listening to;I just discovered The Lennings via Liz and The Lumineers via Spotify. SO GOOD. Alternating between them, Mumford and Sons and the new Kesha song. DON'T JUDGE ME. That's a really good song and it's so catchy. Kesha and Pitbull are like my guilty pleasures. Everyone has them. Oh shut up already.

Planning; I fully intend on getting up some of the pictures I've taken of Ivory at the park. She's walking now you guys.... she was barely crawling the last time I posted pictures of her for her birthday. Like, SHE'S SO BIG.

Working on; I don't really have anything much to report on in this department. I should be working on ideas for how to get sponsorship but with everything else going on in my life (work drama, baby duty, trying to find "me" time, preparations for moving, school, ect) it is sitting on the back burner.

Wishing; I had a new camera. Borrowing my friends is killing me. Or that it was Saturday already.

What are you up to?

Currently: OVERWHELMED

Loving;  That it is October and that means that EVERYONE has pumpkin fever and that it won't dissipate until just before Christmas. This is where I stock up on pumpkin bread mix, eat way too much pumpkin pie, pumpkin cheesecake and buy a weekly pumpkin chai from Starbucks. NO ONE IS IMMUNE.

Reading;  I'm terrible. I haven't been reading anything besides blogs lately. I suppose that counts right? I think I've found my BFF spirit animals in the 9 girls that write Least Likely however, because everything they are writing resonates in my head with a "yes, yes, um yes" and rarely a "um no." Which is good right? Of course I'm right, I'm always right.

Watching; So if you've noticed an influence to my writing it might be the fact that almost all of my shows are back. A.k.a I have witty banter back in my life and I will attempt to keep up.  2 broke girls, Grimm, Parenthood, Glee are all back and within the next couple of weeks The Walking Dead, The Vampire Diaries and Gossip Girl will all be back. I'm in TV show overload. THANK YOU GEEBUS.

Anticipating;  The end result of my advertising giveaway. I'm anxious to see who wins, how many people enter, ect.

Listening to; MUMFORD AND SONS. New album is amazing. Pink's new album is amazing and the No Doubt album is alright but I've never really been that big on No Doubt besides Tragic Kingdom. They'll never do better than that album. Sorry Gwen.

Planning; I'm planning on doing a few guest blogs. It's hard to write them though. I want to please people. I want to appeal to these different bloggers' readerships and I want to write whatever I want to. But if you have a mom blog, well, I'm not a mom. So I write about being a wanna-be mom to Ivory right? You have a foodie blog, well I suck at cooking but I still write about my cooking blunders right? Oh you're a beauty/fashion blog? YAY something I know tons about. But how do I still sound like me when I'm trying to please you? Oh, it's very troublesome. I don't mind though because I love to write and prompts NEVER stump me.

Working on; There's so much. Guest blogs, advertising, sponsors, packing, planning my move, it's just so much to do plus we're getting really busy at work these days and I'm just overwhelmed. Thus the inspiration for the photo above.

Wishing; I am really hoping this giveaway I have going on will be huge. Then I can fix or buy a new camera (Nikon D5100 is my aim). Mine being broken is seriously cramping my style and I just want to cry over it. Seriously, I already have.

What are you currently up to?

Currently: Sara Sick Girl

Loving;  NOTHING. LOL I'm sick and I am a miserable sick person because I just don't do sick. I get headaches that make me physically ill and that's about it. I think it's this building to be honest. I've been sick twice since I started working here. I got the sniffles in July (who get colds in the middle of summer besides me? Oh right, no one!) and then yesterday I was fine when I left the house and about 11:00-11:30 I ended up feeling pretty awful. I thought it was because I was hungry and hadn't eaten so I went and got a mashed potato bowl from KFC (minus the chicken and gravy so it was literally cheese, potato and corn) and that made things worse. I was so miserable at one point I put my head between my knees, almost feel asleep and then

Reading;  Currently reading the back of my eye balls. I really am not doing so well. Trying to get some work done too so I'm just kind of reading worksheets and patient intakes.

Watching; We have the news on. I'm listening kind of so that counts as watching right?

Anticipating; LOOPER. Because of JGL duh. As well as the other movies I mentioned last time. Finally found a theater playing For A Good Time Call and guess what? Didn't get paid on time so I couldn't go because now I'm back to baby duty every night. :(

Listening to;The news. LOL guess maybe that doesn't count?

Planning; I have zero planned except a trip to a metaphysical store for some mumbo jumbo I'm researching and I'm definitely planning to go home and do nothing but sleep. Except I planned that for last night too and that didn't get done. Boo.

Working on; Finding those E.L.F Disney Villain make up sets (seriously you guys, help me find out where they are) and also, the Forever 21 make up. I plan on just doing photo posts for them.

Wishing; I was back in California already. I hate you Florida and your icky weather. Power's gone out twice today and I got rained on while SICK to help a little old lady. My tolerance for Florida is extremely short right now. I'm just a grump today.

What are you currently up to?

Currently...

Loving;  The fact that someone, somewhere in my building is watching Star Wars because every now and then hear the theme or some random composition from it. I smile every time and then kind of picture a light saber fight scene in my head. Don't hate.

Reading;  So I picked up a book on my way back from California called Servant Of The Bones by the lovely Anne Rice. I haven't heard of it before so I'm hoping its good and not from her I-only-write-God-books days. Cringe. But I'm also in the middle of An Abundance of Katherines by John Green. It came highly recommended by a close friend. It's On The Road meets It's Kind Of A Funny Story and I just can't get into it. So that's why I'm reading two books at once - again.

Watching; HUNGER GAMES. On repeat. Seriously. Who doesn't love a female badass?

Anticipating; I am anticipating two movies right now and some serious JGL action. Tomorrow For A Good Time Call comes out in select theaters and I'm bummed because I doubt anywhere near here will fucking have it. I want to see it because of Justin Long and probably the only blonde girl I'd ever turn lesbian for Ari Graynor are in it. Then I saw the trailer for Pitch Perfect and I have to say Anna Kendrick is growing on me. I'll forgive her for being in Twilight. It also has Brittany Snow in it and I kind of sort of love her too. Damn, there's a lot of actresses I'm into lately. Not so much the fellas besides my usuals. Hmmm.

Oh and the JGL action you say? Well, his record that he's been working on FOREVER is finally coming out on Sep 11th and then he is going to be on SNL the 22nd. Now, I kind of made a vow to not watch SNL because basically everyone left and I'm like "well, fuck why would I watch this shit when everyone I love and watched it for left?" But it's JGL - point, set, match.

Listening to; So I've had "We Go Together" stuck in my head all day and I've basically just been making up my own version of what I call "the silly part" where they sing a rama lama ding dong, shoo whop bop, yippidi boom sh-boom, ect.  A WHOP BAM BOOM!

Planning; Absolutely nothing. Besides maybe loafing on my 3 day weekend. How crazy, I was in Cali last week and now this. Thanks Gramps. I needed a few vacations.

Working on; I am not going to spoil anything but I will say this - I'm writing again. :D

Wishing; I was back in California already. I hate you Florida and your icky weather, your shitty people and the fact that my friends have completely forgotten about me because I'm in the penis of America and apparently no one likes a dick. :P

What are you currently up to?

Currently: Going WTF

Loving; The above picture. Last time I did one of these I told you how much I love JGL. I was not joking. Look at that facial expression; Dear JGL, get in my bed. xoxo Sara

Reading; I'm not reading anything at the moment. Instead I am writing again. I love the idea of the story and it fits with what is going on in my life. I have to be in a certain mindset to write and I'm in that mindset again.

Watching;  50/50 again because of JGL and because of this scene here.I think that accurately portraits how I feel right now. Oh and this will always be relevant too.

Anticipating; California. It is a shitty reason for going but California has healed me before and I am sure it will do it again. I can't wait to see my mom, hug my grandma and well, the end of the trip promises to hold a surprise I won't tell you about until it happens. ;)

Listening to; Yellowcard. What else? the new album is amazeballs. Awakening is my jam.

Planning; Packing for California. I'm only going for 6ish days but it seems like everything I want to wear to the funeral doesn't do my grandpa justice and I basically want to take my whole shoe collection with me but that's not practical at all. I also know I'll be bringing a bunch of stuff back with me so I know I need to leave room for that.


Working on; The story I am writing, some ideas for posts for the blog and I've got a few DIY's coming up. :)

Currently: Missing You!

Hi blog, I've missed you. The reason I've been gone... Well, see "Reading" and you'll know why. Anyways, I missed you bloggy. I set up scheduled posts and have been away from this for like two days since I first set it up this way and that's way too long. Mama has separation anxiety and so that's what has inspired this late Saturday evening post. I'm deciding to do another "Currently" Post because well, I want to inform you of my spinster ways!

Loving;  The dress I am wearing in the picture above. It's really low cut but it fits me well and it's one of those twirly dresses. As in you can twirly and the skirt spins with you and if you switch directions and do the washing machine (that famous dance from Selena?) then it's really fun. This is one of those twist-and-shout dresses and I love it.

Reading;  I have been wrapped up in *gulp* 50 Shades of Grey. Yeah, I'm hanging my head as I type this. My friends were like "it's kinky shit" and then another couple of friends were like "it's Twilight Fan fiction" and laughing I had to find out. Well, yes I can see all the Twilight influences and yes it is very much written in that fan fiction style. I can't knock it, I got my start in writing fan fiction. It was the first prose I ever wrote. I wrote songs and poetry early on in high school and then something lead me to fan fiction about my favorite band and I was hooked. I discovered through school that I was really good at writing and VROOM I ran a million miles with the promise that I'd only go an inch.

Watching; I bought 50/50 on DVD because I LOVE Joseph Gordon-Levitt (I'll refer to him mainly as JGL for future reference) and it was funny and touching. It's a highly under-rated romcom and I love it.

Anticipating; Not much. Ivory's birthday is the 23rd and mine is the 20th so on the 18th I'm going to Ivory's party, then a friends baby shower and birthday party and then mine is at night. I am perfectly aware of how fucking exhausted I am going to be, which is why I am glad I have Sunday off to recover!

Listening to; Still listening to Yellowcard. I ended up NOT going to Warped Tour :/ and so I ended up not seeing them HOWEVER I will be seeing them in November. I promise myself that because I cannot not (I'm aware of the double negative) see them after the new album is out. Seriously, in love with this band anymore.

Planning; I'm planning Ivory's party, my party and maybe some things for this site?

Working on; what I'm going to post for Make Up Monday and Wednesday Want List this week. Huzzah bloggy!

Wishing; I'm always wishing for money. Specifically for a new tattoo for my birthday and a camera so that I can take better pictures for my site. :)

What are you currently up to?

Currently: Bored At Work

Loving;  My job. It has been a long time since I actually liked my job, haven't hated my boss or the people I work with and I just am very grateful that I finally found something. If you work full time or even have two part time jobs then those take up a third if not more of your life. You have to be doing what you love or you will lose yourself and that's something I had to learn the hard way. "Do what you love and fuck the rest." Paul Dano's character in Little Miss Sunshine said that. Totally true.

Reading; Ok well here's the thing - I read Pride and Prejudice every year. It's usually at different times of the year too, it's never set in stone. Last year I read it in November. This year it looks like July. So if you count my annual reading of P&P then that's what I'm reading. If not, then I am not reading anything and that makes me very sad.

Watching; Gilmore Girls. I have always loved that show and ABC family always has it in steady rotation so that makes me happy. Perhaps I will finally hunker down and just buy the seasons on DVD. I usually think it's stupid but the show is just so classic.

Anticipating; This weekend & Warped Tour at the end of the month. My payday ends up being on Sunday so incidentally I will get paid on Saturday and that's perfect. I am taking a friend to Orlando as a going away present (he is moving to Texas). We are going to do Universal during the day and then go out to dinner, spend the night in Orlando and come back Sunday morning.

Listening to; Yellowcard. They have a new album coming out August 14th called Southern Air and I am in love with the two songs I've heard thus far. I was also in love with their last album and seeing them live. They have so much energy. They are the main reason I am going to Warped Tour.

Planning; I'm planning this weekend and besides that not too much.

Working on; Stuffing some envelopes for work as well as ideas for blog content. Do you have any? What would you guys like to see?

Wishing; That I had a million dollars because I know just what I would do with it. LOL.

What are you currently up to?

Thanks to SRSLYLIZ  for the inspiration behind this post.