Going Forward by Going Backwords

Going forward by going backwords, Sara what the hell are you on about?

Well, I have made a decision. It was one I made awhile ago, around the first time my grandpa got sick and I mean really sick. Like the time Brit made me text her that Ivory was sick so she could leave work early & found me curled up on my bed with an empty gallon of Captain. That kind of sick. 

I am moving back to California and I will most likely never live in Florida ever again. 

It's just not my home anymore. It served a purpose and I'm over it. Time to move around into other areas of the world and explore. I do mean the world. I want to see it. ALL OF IT. I'm basically deciding that each year until my Grandma's passing that we will plan a trip. I want to take her places that she's never been - Paris, England, Australia? She's lived in Spain but I'm not sure where else she's been or if there is anywhere she'd like to go but this is going to be our new thing and I can't wait to embark on it. We will be like old times. Well, that's if she'll even get on the plane. LOL. Maybe it'll just be me. :(

But these are the things I think about at 24 when deciding on what to do with my life or where to live:  

If I had a kid would I raise it here? 

Is this where I want to spend my life? 

Could I put roots here? 

And the answer to all of these is a resounding FUCK NO.

I miss my family sometimes and my little trip back "home" reminded me of that. I have friends there who actually make an effort to see me and there are opportunities there that you can't get anywhere else.

I've had some hard times and I'm relatively lucky for surviving it all but it has made me a stronger person. The lyrics on the graphic I made are from Let The Music Play by Good Charlotte, my favorite band. I love the positivity of that lyric. Yeah times are tough and dark and gloomy but after the rain beautiful things happen. Rainbows appear, flowers grow and then it isn't raining anymore. You catch a break. Nothing is happening to me and nothing will ever happen to me here.  So this was my umbrella, my shelter from the rain. But I have to go back out into the storm. I need to go and face my fears, struggle a bit and set some goals for myself. I need to grow up. I really do.

Photographic reasons I miss L.A:

I always said Johnny Depp would be the only man to get me on my hands and knees on dirty Hollywood BLVD

Obvs gotta be in Darth Vaders shoes

You'll discover I like to make obscene faces in pictures

Snazzy Dresser - Buzz Media Offices

My photopass from shooting GC

Griffith Observatory

The night my friends won Best L.A Breakout Artist

That one time I was on FUSE Tv

That one time I embarrassed myself on national tv.

Oh wait, no... this was more embarrassing. So much fun though.

FOOD. I miss California for it's food.

And being a dick at Art Shows

Again with the food....

And being a fucking weirdo

And the beach... hoodies at the beach.

and sitting on the street waiting for shows....

So yeah that's all.

P.S: 50th Blog Post ya'll! w00t w00t!

P.S.S:
What's the one place you miss and would love to live?